What hurts the most
Friday, 22 June 2012 | 01:38 | 0
Been feeling extremely tired recently even though I did nothing and slept more than 8 hours. I didn't even step out of house or do anything that actually requires much energy. Guess my time of the month is coming... Caught the sore throat bug from joey some more... Been having this terrible headache for quite a while and there's no more panadol at home sigh.
I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I don't even know why i'm feeling so shitty recently. Just when i thought i'm getting over you it all seems like it's literally just a 'I thought' Sigh. Finally getting out of this house later. Left with a few days before School is reopening already. Gotta start being damn serious with my studies and this time i'm serious. Gonna let myself get through Os without regrets. Decided to head back for Netball too to regain all my lost muscles and tone back my legs. Been feeling so wobbly already.
Today is such a sad day and i don't even know why. I don't even know what i'm feeling anymore. It all feels numb. Glad that i had Shawn to talk to when i was feeling down and he told me to hear the sad songs _l_ what kind of friend sia serious but after that he told me this super funny youtube video, you all should watch too! Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EuRhT2TqEUE haha, really kind of made me feel a bit better. Sigh. But i feel really bad cause sometimes when Shawn do siao siao things i would always think he was you. Which i'm pretty sure it ain't nice if he knows about it. I need to stop missing you this bad. Haiiii, I need to move on like how you did. Really amazed by how you manage to do it cause everyday i die a little more.
Can't wait for mummy to be back from Hong kong! 6 more days and she would be here with me :) I want my pizza chips and in need of her company. Can't wait for good food when she's back too... :p Greedy me. That's about it. Gonna stone and get rid of this bad headache first.
xoxo
"what hurts the most was being so close, having so much to say and watching you walk away"
