Talking to the moon
Wednesday, 27 June 2012 | 03:03 | 0
School has been really hectic for me, with all my overdue homework and stuff.... practically dying. And the fact that I have been having to face with the screwed body clock.... I'm so tired everyday. Screwed eating and sleeping habits led to me having headache all the time, It's so unbearable :( & i'm attempting to quit smoking recently and the side effects are so bad :( I feel so dead inside. Like alive only on the outside. Have to bear with a crazy erratic stomach and stuff, i can practically roll on the bed all day. It's cramps though. Like all the time it feels like my stomach is squeezing. omg.
Today my FT has to do a spot check on Nails some more, and being a princess-y me, I never really did my nails myself before and i couldn't bear to cut it that short so i anyhow cut, and she had to check me again.. i begged and pleaded her to let me do it at home and she had to say no -.- and even CUT IT FOR ME. In my mental head is like really Can Don't??!? omg.... So weird, like the whole class look at me :( Anyway i'm going to study real hard, been staying up recently to make sure i complete my homework, and no matter how tired i am i try to stay awake in class. Time to turn over a new leaf and make my parents happy. :)
Hearing all my friends troubles and pain, i would always wish, i was the one feeling the pain for them, i'm already so broken it wouldn't matter taking the pain for them, but this. Just let time do it's magic for you guys, If it could help me, it would definitely help you all too. so Cheer up, xx.
(I clearly don't practice what i preach tho)
xoxo
"Talking to the moon, trying to get to you"
