When there was me and you
Thursday, 2 August 2012 | 22:05 | 0
Met my favourite girls today! Ooops, I meant my bird and dog. Hehe, okay. So well Michelle Mama became a bird today and jazlyn self-acknowledge herself to be my dog which was pretty much quite true... hehe, so. yeap, days out with them are just filled with nothing but laughter and the things we laugh about are seriously crap. Don't even know what's so funny actually hehe, we're just childish.
Almost overslept for school today. I swear i'm seriously a pig. This is the fourth day or third I can't remember that I overslept. Oh my. Had to ninja prepare and sprint all the way to the far bus stop to take the bus. WHAT A MORNING EXERCISE. Sigh, but luckily 59 timings are quite fixed so i can make it in time for the bus when i run! Thus my conclusion: I need to set more than 4 alarms cause it's proven, 4 is not enough. Or maybe what i need is just my sister. Hehe my personal human alarm!
Had morning exercise and my class came in first today when we were last the other time! Not bad not bad, 5/3 is not a lazy class after all. Had English Oral with Ms Lim after that, like one to one since it was my free period. My oral skills are really bad and so it was really nice to have her help! I am the last girl in my school to have English oral on the last day. Wow. Last of last. Am i supposed to be honoured? Haha. Hate how i'm always the last :( HEHE. But oh wells.....
Sigh, been doing so poorly and being so sleepy in school when it's just the last four days and we're stopping for exams and what not for a month yet i can't even stay awake in lesson....WHAT IS THIS. I need to stop disappointing my teachers, i need to buck up, but there's this fatigue in me every time i look at my work. I don't know why? Where did my motivation go to? I used to have them. Can I have them back? I really wanna do well for Os, I need to put all these into action and not just say. But I can't go against laziness... What should I do? :(
Anyways, life has been pretty smooth for me recently. I guess I have gotten used and numb to my feelings already. It's like I still can't move on, I pretty much haven't even gotten over you in fact. But I learned the skill of ignorance is bliss and to tell myself I don't care. Although deep down in my heart I care like fuck, i really care a lot about everything related to you, but I learned to switch it off. I really hope I could rewind time, to love you better, to keep you till now and all, but since i can't turn back time. I'm only filled with regrets and I can only keep that portion as a memory. Should stop harbouring any positive thoughts.
It's funny how everyone I know are secretly hurting so bad inside but every time we meet, we can just forget all that pain and have just a few moment of what it's like to be happy again. Guess no one just likes being alone. Be it a friend or a group of friends you just need that companion to make you feel better.
Recently my digestive system is pretty fucked up, been peeing and shitting too much, much more than what i even eat sigh. This is a sign. A bad one :( And i sense a sore throat coming cause i've been needing water all day all night. I hope I don't fall sick on my birthday anymore. Gonna take vitamins for this few days just so i can stay healthy till my birthday bleh. I'm really so stoked for it!! Gonna spend the day with whoever is coming yay! Photo spam is a must!!!!
Shall play L4D2 to unwind now! hehe, Have fun studying/working/partying everyone!
xoxo
"But everybody else could tell, that i confused my feelings with the truth"
