Enough love
Tuesday, 4 September 2012 | 02:34 | 0
Hello.
So, I had a really happening weekend this time. Clubbed and drink and stuff. So tiring.. And i promised myself to abstain living a lifestyle like that till at least Os are over. So many temptations, but I will try my utmost best to resist. To be honest, I don't really like clubbing. Just maybe the drinks and the music. They are really good. But clubbing always makes me so tired and drunk and that's not good. HEHE.
Had a mini heart to heart talk w mummy about what has been happening lately, and mummy had some good suggestions! I really hope it all turns out possible cause that would be awesomeee!! :) I really love my family but i hate how we are all so busy with our own individual life that we don't bother much about one another anymore which is quite saddening.
Anyway, went to watch Imperfections today and the movie was so good although it's quite fake uh, like this doesn't happen in Singapore anymore. But the brotherhood was so touching and like how they are willing to sacrifice so much for their brothers. And how much their family loves each other so much although none of them shows it at all. I cried all the way at the end, sick. After the movie I realised it wasn't even that sad, had no idea why my tears just kept streaming down. Hahaha, retarded Shermaine.
Day 1 of September holidays seems good. Slacked with MC and J earlier. Had a good fun time, forever full of laughters! But my dad was really pissed at me for not coming home early enough although i kept telling him i was "On The Way" Lies people tell, on the way, but yet actually not. So at 11 plus he texted me why am i not home yet, and i told him on the way.... an hour later he asked again, i said, i was carried away talking to my friends really on the way now, another hour after again he called....
Dad: Knn, Still don't come home ah?
Me: Oooops, really otw already!
Dad: Cb, don't talk cock with me ah.
Me: HAHA Are you 'runk' (How jaz dad pronounce drunk)
Dad: Fuck your cb la what drunk, 10 mins don't come home, i lock the door, you forever don't come home.
-Hangs my call-
*texts dad* 'Even if fly also cannot ok"
Dad replied: I don't care
Hoping like hell, he doesn't scolds me, Reach home..... NOTHING HAPPENED.
-Facepalm- But my dad is really vulgar right :( Why so fierce on the phone sia, so sick.
Anyway, tomorrow is a full study day, school then tuition. Sighhhhh..... But well, i kinda miss studying a little, been partying way too much, needs to get back on the right track. The O level route. Gotta start being serious already. Playing too much. Such a playful girl.... After os sure rabak.
Anyway, after hearing what you said. I actually felt relieved. I finally knew how and what and why. I think that's really nice to know, you really made me reflect. The whole fucking night yesterday. Just laid on bed with my Orang Utan all night, from 1am - 5am just thinking about my whole life, was I really like this, like that, and whatever? You affected me so much, To the extent, I don't even understand why, but after the whole night of thoughts, i got it. I understood. I finally did. & this time, i'm really letting go. My heart died the day you already left me, so it doesn't matter anymore, i can't even be bothered to revive it anymore.
Hi Five to all the singles~ I'm a happy Single but not available. Finally i'm moving on, letting go.
I think i'm really good at hiding my feelings and the side i don't want anybody to see.
xoxo
"The me that loved you"
